I wanted to share with you all to let you know I am back in the studio working on a new single! Thanks to everyone who donated to my go fund me campaign several months ago. While I didn’t reach my full album goal, the donations I received were enough to head to the studio and start working on a single! My intention for my campaign last year was to raise enough funds for a full album but I had a few health hurdles during my pregnancy that prevented me from really focusing on doing concerts in order to promote my album campaign.
In other news, baby Isaac is now 6 months old! He is rolling everywhere, working on crawling, and flashing his big, wide mouth smiles that melt momma’s heart every time! What joy motherhood is and a beautiful glimpse into the heart of my heavenly Father! Since motherhood, I find myself reading scripture with a renewed sense of purpose as I reflect on what it means to be a child of God.
I specifically have been pondering on Genesis 3:16: ”To the woman he said, “I will surely multiply your pain in childbearing; in pain you shall bring forth children…” (Seems like a weird scripture to meditate on but bear with me!) There are many consequences to sin, so why did God specifically mention this particular consequence? Whenever I am thinking through a passage of scripture, I like to ask the question, “How does this point to Christ?” What got me thinking on this verse was the fact that I already feel like I have pregnancy amnesia. I know I sacrificed a lot and went through a TON of pain to give birth to Isaac, but I would gladly do it all over again because he is worth it! Doesn’t that seem crazy? Why would a woman willingly put herself through such a painful ordeal?
For nine months the mother will sacrifice her body for the sake of the child. She experiences the morning sickness, mood swings, back pain, weight gain, stretch marks, and swelling. As she looks at the dark, rough images of the ultrasound she sees only a foreshadowing of what is to be her child. Will it be a boy or a girl? She already has in mind the name she will choose. She goes through week after week of anticipation of that wonderful moment when she can finally behold her child in the light of the hospital room. As the contractions begin, she experiences the most painful part of the pregnancy – the labor. Bearing down, she uses every bit of strength in her body to push her child into the world. Out of darkness and into light.
Isaac would have had no hope of entering the world on his own. He did nothing to conceive himself nor did he decide to push himself out of my womb! He was completely helpless and his life was dependent upon my willingness to give of myself. Isn’t it neat how God designed it that way? Before the world began, God already knew my name. Before Christ, I was dead in the shadows of sin but God chose to clothe me in the light of His glorious, radiant Son. It was painful and messy. We were undeserving and utterly hopeless. Praise Jesus for covering our sins with his perfect blood and making us innocent and beautiful in the eyes of our heavenly Father!
Thank you Jesus for the pain I experienced during childbirth! My suffering brought me closer to you. You willingly chose to endure the pain of the cross. It was your suffering for my freedom and without your sacrifice I would have no hope of being born again. It helps me better understand just how helpless I am without Your grace. Thank you for transforming me into the likeness of Your Son. Thank you for not leaving me in the shadows of my sin.
“For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son that whoever believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life” John 3:16
For God so loved Leeah.
For God so loved Isaac.
For God so loved______________!
You are deeply loved and cherished by God. Are you still living in the shadows? Call upon His name.